I know that each day is different and we're challenged in different ways. Some days it's the creep that comes into my work and flirts with me even though I'm wearing my wedding ring and all I want to do is show my disgust but I have to be nice because it's my job. Other days I don't want to get out of bed because I know I have a million things to do and I'd much rather be bundled up in my warm cozy covers. Some days I feel like I'm going through life only to get to the next day because I have no idea where I am going to be in 6 months. Whatever the challenge, I try to stay optimistic and positive. However the latter challenge has been increasingly haunting Jason and me lately. It's so hard applying for jobs and hoping that Jason can find something after graduation. It seems like every plan of ours has an "IF" attached to it because we're trying to be prepared for whatever comes our way. It would be nice to start a family somewhere along this messy road but it's hard enough planning all of this craziness with our three animal children, let alone a baby. What do we do? This is what we've been asking ourselves and haven't really come to a conclusion. So.....we continue to live each day as it's own and deal with the next when it comes. I guess that's all we can do for now.

Man I am LUCKY!

I just wanted to express my gratitude for my husband Jason. He is my number one fan and has been ever since we started dating when we were 14. He is my best friend and my everything. I always thought it sounded weird when people said that their love grows everyday for their significant other. But now I understand that. I love Jason more today than I did when I married him, and that wasn't even a year ago! Imagine how much I'll love him on our 50th wedding anniversary! Man I am lucky! :) Jay loves me for EVERYTHING I am. Without makeup, when I'm sick, when I have morning breath, when I'm just plain ridiculous and the list goes on and on. I have actually learned a lot about unconditional love from him. He never ceases to amaze me with the amount of love he possesses. Things that I can't even seem to forgive myself about, he's already forgiven, forgotten and moved on. He's an amazing example to those around him and I can't wait to start our family and watch him be a father. I can't imagine my life without him and am excited to spend the rest of my life with him. He is my best friend, my love, my everything.

CATCH UP

So i've been meaning to get this thing set up for a while. Now that I've stopped slacking I thought I'd spill it about everything going on lately. First and foremost of my priorities and concerns is my mom. Just over 4 years ago she was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer. She had 2 feet of her colon removed and went through a vigorous chemotherapy. It was a hard time for all of us and just when we thought we were past all of that, we get word that it's back. It has now spread to her lungs. For whatever reason, the doctors in San Diego never did follow up catscans, even though she requested them. So sure enough when she moves out to North Carolina and has her first big annual cancer prevention visit, the doctor schedules a catscan to be safe and, there it is, cancer. We were all shocked. I flew out to North Carolina just 3 weeks ago to be with her for her biopsy. Now it's waiting time to see which hospital she wants to have her surgery done at. She's hoping to get into the leading cancer hospital in the nation which is in Texas. We will see.

Jason and I are living in Fresno for the summer. He's doing door to door pest control sales and I'm going to school full time online and working in the call center for the pest control company in the evenings 4-9. It's worked out great for us. Fresno hasn't been as bad as I had thought. It's a HUGE improvement from Logan, baically just because they have Target, Costco, Whole Foods and a MALL here! :) Small towns just don't fancy that stuff I guess. Oh well. Three more weeks up here and then we'll be heading back to San Diego for 2 weeks to spend time with family and friends before heacing back up for school. I will be done with school in December and Jason will finish in May 2009. I can't wait! After graduation we're moving back to San Diego!! I miss it so much but I know when that time comes I will be sad to leave Logan. It has been a great place for us to start off and it will always have a special little place in my heart.

We just got a new truck, Big Black, who I am so excited about. He's a 2007 black 4 door V8 F-150. He's a dream to drive. I'm mainly excited because now we can take Mach, our horse, with us everywhere! Speaking of Mach, I miss that freakin horse like no other. I can't wait to get back and work with him. We have Jasmin with us here and we just added a new lil one, Brody the doberman who has WAY too big of paws! He's going to be a "fierce" size as our british vet said this morning.haha. He's actually a really good puppy. I'm very surprised. We're still not 100% sure he's going to stick. We have a lot on our plate right now and we're not sure if this was the best decision at this moment in time. We just really wanted a friend for Jaz, but apparently she's not too fond of him. We'll see.

That's about it for now. I'm sure there's a million other things going on inside this head of mine but I'll leave those for another day :)